god I was a mess #

I’m rediscovering a band I used to listen to nearly 20 years ago, Moderat.

This music came at such a strange time in my life. I struggled with allowing myself to listen to anything other than Christian or worship music. It’s sad because Christian music fails to produce anything making you feel anything of substance; the dichotomy of “I’m a sinner heal me,” “I’m in love with you,” and “I’m going to heaven and everything is great,” with very little in between. Or worse, “the world is bad” or “let’s pray for the sinners.” Musically, Christian music is, at most, a surface level copy of non-Christian music, but in major chords and rebranded content about the (self-imposed) struggle of a Christian’s life in a broken, fallen, world.