lovely shit going on right now #

and out of that here’s some music.

the birth of chaon

enjoy.

it’s always something, right? #

For the last few months I’ve been spending my free time getting our house ready to sell. It’s been hard but rewarding watching it transform. Mostly little things we’ve been meaning to do, plus a few bigger items needed before listing—cleaning baseboards, recaulking, new flooring, fresh paint. The house is shimmering now, even more than when we bought it.

Our house has been mostly trouble-free since we bought it in 2017. Regular maintenance with the occasional leak or fix—nothing we couldn’t handle. We’ve stayed on top of everything.

being wrong is central to my worldview #

When you live your life based on evidence, your natural inclination is to dismantle and test your assumptions. People who live their lives based on evidence, rather than faith, welcome being wrong.

When you’re presented with new information that challenges your understanding of the world, but choose not to consider it and adjust your understanding, then you’re living in cognitive dissonance. You’re making a choice to remain comfortable rather than embracing truth.

here’s some fun science for the day #

Your brain is telling you who you are as a person. What you like and don’t like, how you respond to situations, which then dictates how you feel about things. When you have a brain injury, your brain might change in ways that tell you different things now. You might have different interests, different temperaments, different reactions to outside stimulus.

You, and what you perceive during your roughly 85 years of life, are an imagination by a piece of meat in a helmet.

maxed out again #

I guess this is becoming a trend I should look into. Maxed out again over lunch, logged out, messed with some music.

found this gem #

I accidentally ran into this while slicing out clips from a different tape to run through the processing chain.

Not sure who it’s by; it’s an unlabeled tape I’ve been randomly recording over. This happened to be after the section I recorded, but kept extracting from the tape onto my laptop. Normally I just delete this kind of thing but it grabbed me something specific today.

just needed a few minutes to coast #

Last week I was feeling super fucking maxed out. Work has been tiring on a number of fronts. Then working on the house in the evenings compounded it.

So I logged out for lunch, put my phone on silent, and made some music.

This was recorded over a single take in 30ish minutes. I recorded some mini synth sounds onto a tape loop, then my guitar onto another tape loop, then fed those each into a channel on my mixer. Then guitar through some pedals and into another channel. Then some random creek sounds from the BBC sound archive.

everything ends #

coming to the end.
it ended well.
though it's not what I wanted.

though | dark ambient drone | tapeloop

We’re all much better now that it’s over.

Enjoy.

now with more bandcamp

compelled to continue #

After the 2025 in review post, I kept thinking about all of the great media and books I consumed in 2025 and wanted to post some of my favorites.

Without much introduction…

favorite books (in no particular order) #

Everything is Tuberculosis, by John Green

Touching, informative, educational. Sad that something so easily solvable, which doesn’t exist in wealthy countries, can be such a dramatic, unrepentant asshole in others.

first post of 2026, weeeeeeee #

After reading my view of the worst Star War, Mark had some follow up that I thought was worth its own post.

Enjoy.

Mark

You only had about fifteen minutes to the end of the movie

Blaine

I couldn’t do it

Mark

You would’ve popped a vessel in your eye

Blaine

hahahaha

Mark

It’s just so bad

Blaine

seriously, that film is worse than anything Lucas ever did

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2025, a year in review #

It’s the last day of 2025 so I thought it important to think about and share some of the highlights this year. It’s been a great year despite all of the bullshit happening with the current administration.

Let’s get started. Rewind back to the start of the year. I promise to be gentle.