I’m rediscovering a band I used to listen to nearly 20 years ago, Moderat.
This music came at such a strange time in my life. I struggled with allowing myself to listen to anything other than Christian or worship music. It’s sad because Christian music fails to produce anything making you feel anything of substance; the dichotomy of “I’m a sinner heal me,” “I’m in love with you,” and “I’m going to heaven and everything is great,” with very little in between. Or worse, “the world is bad” or “let’s pray for the sinners.” Musically, Christian music is, at most, a surface level copy of non-Christian music, but in major chords and rebranded content about the (self-imposed) struggle of a Christian’s life in a broken, fallen, world.
Last week I was feeling super fucking maxed out. Work has been tiring on a number of fronts. Then working on the house in the evenings compounded it.
So I logged out for lunch, put my phone on silent, and made some music.
This was recorded over a single take in 30ish minutes. I recorded some mini synth sounds onto a tape loop, then my guitar onto another tape loop, then fed those each into a channel on my mixer. Then guitar through some pedals and into another channel. Then some random creek sounds from the BBC sound archive.
April 28, 2026